Lyrics

Perennial Fae.

1 – Fairy Circle:

Slept inside a fairy circle hoping for the best / Though I’d never been one for believing
Ended up with only moss covering every inch / Of the bedroll I’d brought
But the dialogue had shifted from that point / Little did I know
My words were tinged / With a deep green

The kind of green that you see / when the sun doesn’t
Make it through the leaves and trees above your head
The leaves and trees above your head

Laying on the Jutland peninsula I spread my body out / To take the earth in
The wild grass grows between the cracks I leave / Between the toes and into the small of my back
And I feel, it, a connection / Stronger than any I’d felt before
As my skin / turns a deep green

The kind of green that you see when the sun doesn’t make it through the leaves and trees above your head
The leaves and trees above your head

And I’ll say my farewells / to all of my loved ones
The fae have taken me away
But I’m a willing host, and they’ll be kind
Know that I’ll still be there every time
You look up and see it
You look up and see it
You look up and see it

2 – Drowning in Pastels:

Were you drowning in pastels/as I walked out your back door?
Painted in your bed/a noble work of art
In retrospect, in hindsight/I should’ve turned around
Tiptoed up your stairs/And made a new start

It should’ve been/so much more than an end / for us
I should’ve known you’d be the one to feel some sympathy for me
Even when I didn’t deserve any / from you

Oh what could’ve been / oh we’ll never know
Oh how it felt so slow / but it was
Quick as a caricature / but less mature
But still somehow less insulting
I’ll sketch you again / with inkwell and pen
Draw the outline of your body / then fill it in
In a beautiful pose / with bluebeads on your nose
Color you in pastel gold and blue
And draw myself anew

It should’ve been/so much more than an end / for us
I should’ve known you’d be the one to feel some sympathy for me
Even when I didn’t deserve any

3 – Ornamental Sand (Song for Corliss)

Build it tall/so tall that you can’t see the top
Plate it in silver/whatever you want, don’t stop
See it how you will/Not how it is or will be
It’s ornamental sand/shifting to your whims

But when you skin it alive and stare at its guts
The entrails’ll answer your ifs and your whats
When you stare at its eyes and it stares back at you
Will you see it for what it is?

Cuz you’ve built up/what it is and what it should be
Based on what you’d learned and what you figured would be good to see
You built up/a veneer of admiration
And placed it all upon their head

But the weight is gonna snap their neck.

4 – Prairie Fire:

It’s overdue by a year and some change
Dead life all around the range
Hidden the roots, blocked out the sun
No light for the lively ones

Burn away the dead rot
Sweat away the sickness
Cry away the sadness
It’s all better for it now, it is all better now

Don’t call the fire trucks to service
Let it burn til it scars the surface
Cremate the remains of the annuals
The perennials will rise again

Burn away the dead rot
Sweat away the sickness
Cry away the sadness
It’s all better for it now, it is all better now

Set the prairie ablaze for days and days and days and days
Watch with pride as the flames blaze and blaze and blaze and blaze

5 – Autumn:

And in a single second / in a heart’s beat / The seasons seem / to have shifted again
If you’d just stop for a moment / a pause, a rest / every leaf’s vein / you would ascertain

It’s easiest to trudge through and not examine autumn
Pick the sweetest apple off the branch and break it
But the season’s truth hides itself from prying eyes
Spread yourself on dampened leaves to feel alive

The season’s rife with many / warm experiences
They’re hard to love if you’re not / ready to embrace them

Your perfect day of the season won’t appear
You’ll only ever get the days that are here
But there is beauty to be found in crannies and in nooks
Check the shadows of the trees for days you read in books

Clear the aspersions / you cast on the days / ask the crows and jays / how to feel
Rebuild what you hope for / clear out your dreams / let these damp days / fulfill them

6 – The Skier:

Dawn’s break thru futile curtains / Morning light in our eyes
Drowned in thoughts thru the night / You wept soundlessly by my side
No need to feel so poor, so down / I’ve done enough to meet our quota
Twisted and snapped to find some meaning / Flew from New York to South Dakota

I knew, how I knew, someday, somehow I’d make some sense / To someone, without compromise
Surely it was you, surely it was you / But I couldn’t stabilize

The skier sped down the slope / They’d found a groove, they were certain
The path that led the skier / As futile to follow as to close the curtain
The skier crested the ridge / Morning light blinds their eyes
The skis snap and twist in time / As the skier lands on their side

I knew, how I knew, someday, somehow I’d make some sense / To someone, without compromise
Surely it was you, surely it was you / But I couldn’t stabilize

I saw ‘em on their hospital bed / you were with me in spirit
I told the skier how I loved you / Even if they couldn’t hear it
Left a photo of us in their hand / Cuz I wanted ’em to see
What they’d left as their legacy / They’d die knowing I was happy

And they’d haunt me knowing I couldn’t make it last

7 – Helsinki Moon:

And I am waking in silence / thru the echoes of our dreams
Walking by the coast / where nothing’s what it seems
The days are shorter now / but they’ll grow longer soon
Trapped in darkness / with nothing but the light of the Helsinki Moon

There in that harbor / when no one is around
The darkest night of winter / when snow won’t carry sound
Drown me in whispers / knowing they’ll never be heard
Drown me in layers / surrounded and warmed by your word

Can I understand your words and your thoughts?
If I stare backwards at your mistakes and ink blots?
Will it crystallize it? An errant hope or fear?
Layered dreams / won’t be echoes when we wake up here

Meet me / in the depths of our dreams
The Helsinki Moon / directly above / and it is
A compass to bathe us in light
Illuminate the words that we’ll discover


The Bell Fountain

1 – The Bell Fountain:

I have a penny / made out of tin
The base elements are contained within
Placed it atop / a curled index finger
With the thumb in tow, to strike

Flipping it into the bell fountain / making another foolish wish
Never could I have imagined / it’d end up coming true like this

I chose the penny / with careful hope
In a daze of desperation to cope
To cope with a brain / that put me in pain
I thought I knew the one thing to cure it all

Flipping it into the bell fountain / making another foolish wish
Never could I have imagined / it’d end up coming true like this

But I never thought it could go as well as it did
The spirit of the fountain smiled down, and I was rid
For some sweet moments of the hurt and the ache
The bells pealed throughout my head instead

2 – Olympic Days (A Song for the Other, Other Kurt):

(we’re not)
(we’re not)

Miles away, but we’re miles apart
I said I’d keep you in my heart
But these days I can’t realize
What goes on behind your bliss-struck eyes

It’s not me /  and I’ll never be
I’ll always be wrong / by design

But there’s no need for searchin’, my love
You found the urchin in the touching tank
At the museum you went to as girls
Back when you still wore your hair in curls

Found me / but you didn’t touch me
Not carnal, not loving / just lonely

But the through the consuming haze
The pattern is poignant
Thru these olympic days
That you only care when there’s consequences

It shouldn’t be this tough, to get affection without a lie or a bluff
So from here on, I will say this from my starts:
“Let’s love each other with all of our hearts”

“Never more complex, if you please
Intertwine and leave it to deities”

Now I’ll swear to myself almost every day
I will not give all of my love away
Cuz although that gets you quite far
I’ll save it for someone as special as you

Were
As you were
As you were
As you were

(we’re not)

3 – Water/Falls:

The water falls onto the branches and drips down on you and you
Think you’re happy for the first time in a long time
The water floods into the valley and the creek below and you
Don’t feel as bad as you did, before.

The water drips down from your eyebrows and into your eyes and you
Still feel better than you would’ve today
Now the water’s flooding everything you thought you want and you
Don’t think you’ll bury it this time

Cause the aquifer’s replenished
The wells of your mind are full
The aquifer’s replenished
The gates won’t hold

The aquifer…
The aquifer…


Windswept:

I asked all the questions I needed to ask / And I found the answers laying bare
I wasn’t there ‘cuz I had nowhere better / I was there because you were there

Did I get swept off the mountain peak?
Standing sleek, but oh so meek? In the summer’s gust
Did I get swept into the field?
Freshly healed, even keeled? But covered in rust

Everything I was, it was in love / With the mere idea of you
You were always in my sight line / The blind spot in my field of view

Now I don’t fall asleep like I used to / And I can’t stand to watch the seasons change
But in spite of all of my misgivings / I still seek comfort in that mountain range

Please / promise me you will:

Live your life, fall in love
With someone much better than me

(please)


Calcite & Sandstone:

1.Monument

This is a monument / to all that I will never be
This is a pilgrimage / to what you swore you saw in me
Built out of necessity / from calcite and sandstone
Built with my hands / worked my fingers to the bone

And it breaks / all the waves / on my back
But can I stay afloat?

Built by the ocean/made it worth your while to see
Visit it in summer/the storms won’t bother you or me

With my body / glistening in the sun
Would you think that / all my battles had been won?

And it breaks / all the waves / on my back
But can I stay afloat?

2. Black/Gold

Black, black hole, back in place / Backtrack more, make some space
Gold, gold sun, always new / Rising til it sets, over you

Was it gold?
Or was it black?

As we’re out / adrift in the evening sea
Dawn won’t break / for you and me
My eyes adjust / to the Spanish moon
As we worry / it’ll be too soon

Was it gold?
Or was it black?
Now it’s gone
And I don’t see it coming back

I see every molecule there is to see / Of solar radiation / cast down on me
And in those 8 short minutes / I waited to see / Whichever color you’d wanted to be

3. Crystal/Clear/Creek

I’m watching creeks / Waiting for the right time of the day
The time when the sun / Hits the water just right and illuminates

And all I see / Is crystals in the crystal clear creek
And anyone / Knows they stumbled onto what they seek

I’m setting up lights / Getting the angles just right
I’ve got a generator / They can’t hide from me now

And I will trawl / Trawl it ‘til the creek bed’s dry
And I will mine / Every crystal that you can see

And keep them all for me

4. Noon

Guess I should be mad / but somehow I’m calm
And what I was told / Labor Day Weekend
Is still inside my bones / but you’ll never know
And my oldest friend / still sees you from time to time and I
I don’t believe in God / but I pray he never tells you
Tells you that I can’t be / happy

No, no one tell you / tell you ’bout my love for you
‘Cos you weren’t there / for me at noon

I haven’t felt this ambivalent before
What I had found wasn’t true for sure
But I believed everything I had no choice
I’ll never ask you I’d just be destroyed

5. Windsweeps

The wind sweeps the peaks we just walked
In my head the thousand times we’ve talked
Have all been better than the last
I promised you I’d be just as I say
Paint you pictures and I’ll throw them away
‘Cause now the paint’s all gone black

And I have neither the muse nor the creativity
But we’ll always hedge our bets that I do
And I can’t tell if I’m estranged lover or enemy
I guess I’ll be nothing to you

You’ll hope for an outlying miracle
Pray that all the signs you have seen
Were naught but inconsistencies
And I will be there for you to preen

But I am not here, and I’m not sure if I ever was
I can only hope to not offend you because
I’ve been having questions, you see
Was I only there ‘cos I had nowhere better to be?